little tatter tot / Christi Troxel (Claudia's mommy )
When you're pregnant, you do all the good mommy things. You prepare his room, you fill the drawers with clothes, and decorate so sweet. You Prepare your heart, and your home for the new little miricle that is about to enter your life. Then the day finnaly comes, and you take one look at that little sqinty-eyed face, and instantly fall in love, all the fears that may have once presided, are now a thing of the past. This is the one thing that you can't prepare for. When you are taking the lamaze classes, or reading the "what to expect" books, nothing can prepare you. Like you, I thought " this doesn't happen to my baby"!!! My little girl had been crying before I left home that aweful day- almost as if she were scared. and now I wonder if it was because, God sent his angels down and told her it was today that she had to say good-bye to her mommy and daddy, and she was afraid. It breaks my heart. Q- knew your love, and my little Claudi would smile sometimes in her sleep too. You are right- who wouldn't smile at going to meet Jesus and God in heaven. If we were only that lucky. You were a good mommy until the end, and even now. Find comfort in that. You said that you thought for a moment that he had died. That is common. I would regularly get up every couple hours when my girls were first born, and check to make sure they were still breathing. When I went back to work, I would call home, because I had that same fear- perhaps that was God preparing you for what we were enevitably going to expirecne. I thought I was crazy thinking such, I thought ugly things, but it was purely out of concern. They are so little, you just always want to make sure that the're ok....and now we know they are, playing at Jesus' feet. God Bless you and your family. You are welcome to visit Claudia-Troxel
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